Sometimes life gives you lemons...

I debated putting this post on the blog because it is not a fun subject, nor does it come with any pictures of my adorable kids and I imagine it's not something anyone really wants to read about, but on the other hand, this is place to track things that happen in my life.  This news has had an impact on mine so if for my eyes only here it is.

In December I was diagnosed with a somewhat rare condition called POF (Premature Ovarian Failure), I know what a great name, right.  It was quite a shock.  I had never heard of anything like this and was not at all prepared for the news that came with it.  While there are some health implications that go along with it the most devastating part was the fact that we would not be able to have more children, as we had planned.   Even with all the fertility treatments available today, there is nothing that can be done to improve/reverse this condition.  So, after a rough couple of weeks and some time to grieve we have made the decision to focus on all the good things, although I will admit I still have my days and moments when it hits me all over again.  The hardest part for me to swallow, being the control freak that I am, was the fact that I no longer controlled a decision I felt it was my right to decide.

When I started to research more about the condition I realized how fortunate I am that have two beautiful, healthy boys, many women are affected with this in their teens and twenties before they ever even consider children.  In that regard I am so very blessed.  It has really put a lot of things in perspective for me and made me take a really hard look at what I have and how amazing it all is. 

I guess I need to have faith that things happen for a reason even if we don't always understand what that reason is.  Maybe it is just part of God's plan for me and my family and who am I to question that?  However, I will admit I have lately, but as it turns out I have been pretty pleased with his plan for me so far.  So it will be faith and, hopefully, some lemonade for me!

Party Planning (times three)

Since Chase, Carter and Nate have birthdays within about a five week period the planning can get a little crazy.  And for those of you who know me know I am a little OCD, controlling and somewhat of a perfectionist.  So the first couple months of the year are a little hectic and stressful for me.  Chase is first.  Since he is still too little to pick his own theme I took it upon myself to select Elmo.  He has two stuffed Elmo’s that he totes around and sleeps with and he loves Elmo videos and books.  Now the insanity begins, store bought invites were not good enough, oh no, I had to make my own, I mean I have all kinds of free time to be crafty, not.  Now what to do for the cake? 

This week I also reserved a place for Carter’s first “friend” party.  It is the big FIVE for him this year so we wanted to do something different.  Although, when asked where he wanted to have his party he said “Disney World”, what can I say the kid thinks big.  He also wants to have a Willie the Wildcat theme, I wonder where he got that idea?  Nate’s birthday is the day after Carter’s, which to be honest has often been over looked since Carter arrived, we still love all the same.

Carter on his first, second, third and fourth birthdays

Chase on his first birthday

It's about time!

After months of attempting to get start blogging I am just going to jump in with both feet and do it.  If I wait until I have spare time my kiddos will be in college and about 15 years will have passed.  My hope is simply to share and reflect on our everyday life rather it be exciting events or just a simple, ordinary day.